Me and My Kingdom

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven (Matt 6:9)

It's supposed to be all about Him.  It's all about His Kingdom.  What's so hard about that?
Yet I don't seem to be able to remember it much past the last confession of my self-centered action or self-absorbed thought.
I catch a "high view" of God in a natural wonder or a passage of scripture or the words of a song or a sudden epiphany.  I commit myself to turning over all of myself to Him.  I make every effort to think only of Him.  And it lasts all of 3 to 5 minutes until my next selfish act.  Oh, what a wretched man am I.  The good that I would, that I do not, but the evil that I would not do, that is the very thing that I do. (Romans 7:19&24).  Always the war against myself.
Yet, He still loves me.  It's not about my performance.  Which is a very good thing.  He loved me when I was in absolute, active rebellion.  He loves me as I struggle.  And that love makes the struggle a little more bearable.  Little by little, sometimes in obvious increments, sometimes in such subtlety it goes unnoticed, sometimes in chaotic ripping and tearing, but ceaselessly the transformation continues, continually drawing me to surrender all I understand of myself to all I know of Him with His Presence bringing greater Peace than I've ever known.
Until the light of Presence shines again on my inner darkness and we begin again the refining process.
Oh, what a dearly loved by his Father in heaven who has given me everything I need for life and godliness and allows me to suffer the pain of being conformed into the likeness of Christ and that changes everything wretched man am I.

On the way to the center

Updates throughout the day as wifi allows.

Sunday Worship

A little piece of this mornings worship.

The message was about Godly wisdom applied.
We began with Proverbs 1:7 telling us that the Fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, but rather than debate what the fear of the Lord is, we looked at Job 28:28 that says the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, but to turn from evil is understanding.  Or, as I like to say, "None of this stuff really matters until you do something with it."
It's not enough to have a reverence, awe or even terror of God.  It has to change you.  The classic definition of learning is behavior modification.  It is not a mental assent to a series of propositions.  It is not enough to have the winning position in a philosophical or academic debate.  You must have a life altering (continuing to be altered) encounter with the living God.  Brother Lawrence talked about his "high view" of God that forever changed who he was.  How this view made it impossible to pursue anything other than the presence of God.
Jesus talked about it at the end of Matthew chapter seven.  Two men built houses.  Two men faced storms.  But, the man who put the words of Jesus into practice was able to stand.  We have to let His words work on us.
2 Peter 1 tells us that God has given us everything we need for life and godliness, therefore we are to get to work.  If we apply ourselves to the life giving power and grace that is available, we will find ourselves "productive and fruitful".  Nobody wants to live a ho-hum, meaningless existence.  And God does not call us to a life of boredom.  The call to come to Christ is an adventure that leads to unbelievable growth resulting in love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control.  If these things are increasing in our life, we become useful to His kingdom and we can pray with certainty, "Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven."
If these things are not present in our lives, Peter goes on to say, it is because we have forgotten that we have been cleansed from our former sins.  Or as Paul tells us in Romans 8, we are no longer obligated to follow the urges of the sinful nature.  It is allowed, but not required.  We can, but we don't have to.  The same resurrection power that raised Jesus from the dead now lives in me and brings me from death to life.  Paul tells us that we have been made free, so we should live free.  Not free to indulge our flesh, but free to pursue a life of holiness.
We ended with "Happy Day", because we never want to forget that we have been cleansed from our past sin and are now free to be productive and fruitful and that dear brothers and sisters makes for one happy day.

God's Grace

Did you ever do anything so heinous, you were sure you could never be forgiven.  Maybe something as horrible as traveling internationally and setting the watches to local time but mentally converting them back to home time thereby waking folks up 2 hours earlier than was planned on the one and only day they have to sleep in before an arduous week of service work and following a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong day of international travel with security fun, rain delays and the like after too few hours of sleep on the night before they left . . . (just a hypothetical for instance).  Knowing there was nothing you could do to take it back or make it better.  Hoping, just hoping that somehow the family members involved could not only forgive you, but extend the Grace to let you know you are still loved ...
Or, maybe, like me, you've done far worse than that.
You see, it doesn't matter how bad you've been.  God chose to love you anyway.  Nothing ever separates you from His love and I can prove it.
We talk about how God knows everything, and always did.  But we live like what we just did is a shock to Him.  Do you realize that at the point Jesus died for your sins, God already knew that bonehead thing you did just yesterday and the one you are going to do tomorrow.  He already knew that even after you came to know Him, you would do some of the worst things you've ever done.  Yet He still had Jesus die for you.  He loved you while you were a sinner apart from Him and He loves you as a sinner with Him.
Should we continue sinning so that we can receive more of His grace?  Of course not!!  The life we now live is through the power of the Spirit of Christ in us Who gave Himself up as a payment for our sin and gave us the right to be children of God.  Let's live as His children.  Forgetting what lies behind, lets push for what lies ahead.
You know, God's Grace is a lot like orange juice.  Anybody remember Anita Bryant selling Florida orange juice and the commercial with the tag line, "It's not just for breakfast anymore!"?  Well God's Grace is not just for sin.  It is also power to live free from sin.  Christ died so that we might live free, so live free.  By His Grace, we are not obligated to do the things we once did.  Oh, yeah, we probably will sometimes, and His Grace still covers those sins too.  But, we don't have to.  If you want to experience more Grace, then instead of desperately depending on the Grace of forgiveness, humbly accept the Grace that powers transformation.
Grace and Peace be multiplied to you.

And So It Begins

Sat next to Ana from Venezuela on the way down to Miami. We talked about helping people. She teaches English to young children. She has a real heart for the poor in her country and the lack of resources to help them. A very enjoyable 45 minutes! I challenged her to help me change the world. If we will both help 2 people change their lives in our lifetime, we will win in about 800 years. And if you would join us, we can do it much faster.
Just sayin'.

Learning to Trust

Just when I think I've got it figured out, I manage to demonstrate that I don't have a clue.  You'd think that after more than 40 years with God, I would have this trust thing down.  How hard can it be?
I have a whole history of God's faithfulness to me.  I have a strong reasonable basis for my trust in Him.  I have a supportive community that has a similar faith.  I have historic documentation of His faithfulness and sufficiency for many, many others throughout the past ages.  I have many first hand accounts of His intervention on behalf of people I personally know.  What's not to trust?
And yet I still have little things here and there that I need to control...
Maybe I'm good to leave the outcome in His hands as long as He does it my way.  Maybe I can trust Him with the process, but He really needs to stick to the timetable I've established for this particular project.  In subtle ways, I still seek to control outcomes, people, situations and even God.  That's not trust.
Hi, my name is Jim, and I am a recovering selfaholic.
I have discovered that I am powerless over my self-centeredness and my life has become unmanageable.
It's a good thing God's got this.  And I can trust Him with trusting Him.